New Years Eve

Be safe, enjoy the day, live up the night , and may the best memories of 2011, good or bad, imprint on your lives to start anew in 2012. 
And most of all, watch the damn fireworks! ^_^

Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us.  ~Hal Borland

Nancy Drew! and other things

This is the epitome of "forever alone"...sitting in your living room by yourself, playing Nancy Drew games, in the dark. :| i don't even have a cat to make this seem better. But still I can't deny I love playing it no matter how dorky it may seem :)


On another note, he just doesn't even know he makes me go: alidusilasuebfvszdjblvirebgfhkvjs relhdbvsezuejkzsbiuvcbzsrkgjbzseduibvgfelszufhnzlsekjfhzselkufnhvseifhnzseifhguaesmsehngkvjehfzluksefnhlzsukfhvlsekhflnizshuglszmoie 

i get

when i see your name.. creep up my spine

i feel a.. to see you..

so much when I think of you my.. but in a good way.. :)

and I do this..

when i think we can just..

or even..

but... this is how i feel...because i don't think you will ever know this. But I hope you would. 

And currently my infatuation grows stronger for you however it isn't strictly for sexual reasons and i feel that i can say that because no one really reads this anyway but I LIKE YOU. 

Let's try to work this out together ^_^

Merry Christmas :)

Some interesting things have happened within the past two weeks: good, bad, and just plain confusing. But I don't deny that any of the things I did were not my choice not that saying any of this matters except to convince myself of what is true. Even though all I can do is think of you and I know you probably have no interest I hope you can just give me a chance. 


Merry Christmas to everyone out there I hope it is filled with love and laughter despite the darkness of the world. 


I remain happy knowing I have been enjoying life to the fullest, I have a roof over my head, food to eat, a loving family and many amazing friends. I am truly blessed and I hope others out there can find the good in this holiday. 


^_^ 


"Tonight, we are young.. so let's set the world on fire, we can burn brighter, than the sun.." -Fun

Are we just scared?

I have been filling up my time in between people/friends/acquaintances and so on that i feel like nothing is to myself. Also watching bits and pieces of Maid Sama to cheer me up. I may want it this way but I think time alone is best right now even if it isn't what I want. Of course that will continue to be the thing I do not receive. On the bright side I made three A's and one B this semester. Safe to say I am pretty happy :) 


I just want you to know that I am thinking about you. I cannot get you out of my head and all I want is to know who you are. 


Maybe this song will appropriate tonight. 

I hope this Christmas break can help me resolve these qualms. 


Let's hope for a better day so we can live through the nights <3 

Front, back, side to side

I am extremely bored and have no idea what to do with my time now that school is out. Okay that is a complete lie. I can work, volunteer in lab, look for a job next semester, look for trip information, catch up on my shows, clean, christmas shopping, and the list can go on and on. But that is not what I want to do. I want to see him and hang out with him. But that is not going to happen so I am left with my list. Oh and my best friend is awesome she bought me half of the first season of Maid Sama (they didn't have the second half) and I just can't get enough of it. ^_^ Even though it seems like I have all of this free time I really don't. Between working and volunteering in lab I don't seem to have much of a break leaving me to my 3-4am bedtimes once again. The million dollar question? Will Kaitlyn ever be able to go to bed by midnight again? Stay tuned... And I think I will have an anime night very soon. Hopefully!

Not even sure if this is something to get over. It isn't much of anything more than an infatuation. I have another song for that though. Another time.

"It is best to love wisely no doubt: but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all" -Thackeray
<3

Lovely day for a lovely way

IT's my birthday! 22 years old is really not exciting and it keeps getting uneventful from there lol. So what's going on in my world? Well Funimation's Yu yu Hakusho is releasing a DVD series with OVAs and a movie for pretty cheap I may add. I think about $25? Not sure but check funimation.com for the details. Oh and the one person most likely thinking of me is probably the one I should be with but the one I don't want to be with. And the one I want to think of me I think he is done talking to me? Done with me? Personally I think it's rude to stop talking to someone. I have said this many times and I will say it again for redundancy's sake: if you do not want to talk to someone and they keep talking to you, don't ignore them. Let Them Know. I mean maybe some people will get the hint when you give them the code of silence to leave them alone but sometimes they don't get it. And you know what? We are big boys and girls. If a person does not want to talk to you and they openly say that? Try to either remedy what problem there is or just respect it and leave it alone. It is unfortunately and you may not like it but at least you will know so you don't keep making a fool out of yourself. And if you don't want someone to talk to you then like I said don't ignore them and keep letting themselves look like an ass. I mean some people are just going to keep trying to contact you and maybe they need other methods other than the polite asking to stop talking to me blah blah. But others could just be genuinely nice people that want to be your friend and if you have no interest at all, let them know. I have been getting better than this and maybe it is harsh but is better than ignoring someone because no one likes that feeling especially if they don't deserve it. That is rant of the day lol on my birthday. Think I'm gonna watch a movie now :3 Maybe some anime. Maybe go to a graduation party. Then my party tonight! :D 

I will just take him as a boyfriend kthnks :D


"I know nothing with any certainty but the sight of the stars make me deam" -Van Gogh

Fuck this

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This is how finals make me feel. And guys. Sometimes. I just need a fucking vacation in another city or even another country. 


-End rant- 

Live by the sun and love by the moon. But not today. XD