Doooooooooooood

Tokyo Majin is soooooo good. I've only gotten to episode 17.. I'm hooked but have virtually no time to watch the rest for at least another week. D: 


On another note, PopCo is an excellent book so far, a little slow in parts, but the language of the book is really readable and relate-able. I'll review that later after I finish it. 


Annnnnd another note, I am given the predicament that everyone tells me I need to read the Hunger Games before I go watch it. But I'm going on Friday... with my roommate who really really wants to see it as soon as it comes out. I have a test on Thursday. I guess I will put PopCo on hold and test my reading abilities ;) better be as interesting as HP. 


Etc... etc... Spring break is over.. I miss NOLA. Or more I miss the people and what we did. Things just aren't the same here anymore. I have about a month and half left of my undergraduate studies and I am not prepared for the real world -_- Oh well guess I better get over it. BTDUBS.. wth is my teacup?! >:( I expected to see you tonight and you don't show up. 


Final note of the night, I was actually productive in the library, shock and awe all around. And my tongue is burnt from the hot water in my tea I've been drinking all day. 

"To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves" -Federico Garcia Lorca

Keeping my hands to myself

Because I want to touch you. I want to kiss you. SO BAD. I can't even get you out of my head for a day. I don't really know what changed but my nerve to be who I truly am and accept the feelings that fill my head. Maybe it'll pass... but it has been about 3 months now and nothing has changed yet. I wish I could just come out and say it but unfortunately obstacles are standing in the way. But I also don't want to change how I feel. I just want you.

I dream of falling in love, but truly and not just for the novelty. I may fall fast but I don't settle. Maybe I'm weird and my head is filled with self-centered ideas about my own world. Maybe I need to think of others more, or get more in tune with the world. But I already help people, in fact I love to do it. I will do anything for anyone (well reasonably) if they needed something. My head creates stories that are like a movie playing through my eyes and it is never the same story, even the music in the background that I play through my phone... everything has it's own memory and attachment to something. This is how I create my life and form it to what I want it to be. Maybe it is hypocritical to say seize your life and do what YOU want to do with it, but sometimes life gets complicated and you just can't. But there is one thing that will never change: your mind. It is yours, and yours alone to create anything you want and never change that for anyone. :) 

No quotes, just be yourself to the extent that you can and never falter.

For my relief

For so long I have been hearing all these damn break up songs and it is making me feel bad about what I did because it isn't exactly like he was a terrible guy. He didn't emotionally or physically abuse me, he just didn't tend to what I needed and we were both going our separate ways, and for other reasons I decided I couldn't do it anymore. It made me feel so awful like I was this terrible person who ripped some guy's heart out and chewed it up. FINALLY I found a song that matches how I feel about it and relieving my position in this as the "bad guy". 


So enjoy for all of you heartbreakers out there....

Have a great night and sleep well world... 
I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Marilyn Monroe
<3 :) :) :)