LIFE

At least I started this night or day off with an actual anime related post but this blog is called pieces of life. So here is a piece of my life that I need to just get out there. It may be a big piece, like one of those awkward shaped, large puzzle pieces that make you wonder if they honestly ran out of room and just needed to fit something in and here it is. So! Since the new year I have: started reading a little more, be it Sherlock Holmes or World's Greatest Love Letters (yes I do own a book like this). I played three Nancy Drew games because I'm a baller like that. I have done my own research study in lab and participated in Research Day which was amazing and so self enlightening almost? I didn't think I would have it in me to do that but after three long years of participating in research labs it is so nice to finally see it paying off. I pin like crazy on Pintrest. I hang out more with a lot of people. In fact I want to take a look at that very quickly...

You never really notice how in school your friends cycle through depending on where you are in life or in general. Especially in college, you meet new people all the time and the come and go in your life in a flash. I started hanging out with my roommate more which is awesome and one of my best friends from back home which is even more awesome. But other than that I started hanging out and stopped with like 4 other people. 

On another note it is weird to see your ex start hanging out with other girls.. I'm not necessarily overly jealous but there will always be that first pang of jealousy even if I was the one to beak up with him. I have been infatuated with three guys; I have someone who is unexpectedly a little interested in me with no future intentions. 

Besides that life has become a little overwhelming lately. I am finding it hard to cope with being alone (I sound like a Two Door Cinema Club song.. oh wait..) and honestly I would be nowhere without my friends looking after me. That doesn't mean that I still don't act pathetic though, but I wont get into details. 

The guy that I am infatuated with right now has turned into a bona fide man whore; in fact I believe his count went up to 4 or 5 last night, since Thanksgiving. But you know what they say: once you pop the top, the fun don't stop. And it is hard because I know I can do better than that; no one needs to tell me otherwise but it is the damn chase that gets me. 

I am worried about my future and where I will be in three months; because I do not wish to move back home but if I do not find a job by then, then I may need to. It is also finding something to go along with what I would like to do for the rest of my life. 

Anyways I have been an emotional wreck over the past week and that is coming from someone who cried over a firework show at Disney..... because I love fireworks and it brings me nostalgia with a hint of future wishes. 

So... here are two things to you Mr. hornyargentinewholovesteaandelectronicmusicownsatruckispartiallyredneckwhohastheprettiestandlargesteyesiveeverseeninmylifeandveryphilosophicalandiwanttofeelyourtouchsobadithurts. enjoy tonight lame duck. here is your 1up in honor of tonight (hte you)

 

And here is this dedicated to how I had felt all day and you know what? couple of weeks leading up to this..

Advice for myself and anyone else: don't try so hard and don't always be nice. It gets you stepped on. 

Goodnight.